Signs Oh My

What keeps me Motivated [Ana Style]

It's amazing how easily/not so easily this can be done.

It's like a light switch [on/off] [on/off] ; Control=Don't eat.

 I'm fading-but not fast enough. I have a secret and it might kill me.

I wish i could see what they all see, but I don't. I'm not skinny enough-even if I'm empty.

I will just keep trying till, well till I can't anymore.

200-800-0

 I will look like her someday. I'm not going to be that "Role-Poley Girl"  forever. She's beautiful here, and maybe just maybe I'll be too.

 This was taken of me awhile back-I'm hopelessly sucking it in [EPIC FAILURE].

I wish I hadn't stopped, I was at 113 and scared, the only shame I feel now is letting go of that dream; the dream where I was skinny and beautiful. Now I know skinny is possible and so what if I throw food away, take too many vitamins, and eat like a bird-in the end it will all just benefit me, my body. An episode of Skins comes to mind-"when I didn't eat, I held all the power and the ones who loved me were the ones being controlled." I want that power.

If this is what my refrigerator looked like every time I opened it-the urge to binge would be gone.

I always thought that I had to be a pretty good liar, turns out I don't have to be-I just have to have a few tricks up my sleeve. And oh I do [the best one yet is throwing food out...]

[all of these pictures are found on Google.com]

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