Feeling Weak....

It's not being strong enough
It's feeling like I'm going to cry and then crying
It's saying I'm not going to eat and eating
It's saying no to everything I've always wanted and yes to sabotage

It's ignoring that voice that tells me I'm ugly and listening to the voice that says I'm beautiful.
I can't stop-I wont stop-I want it to hurt
It's going to have to kill me
I just want to be PERFECT
I want to see 113 again
Will I ever?
I am!