Disapointment

I can feel the rage deep within me,
It's got a grip on my ever-growing frailty,
It's pushing me further inside myself
I can feel it eating at my weakness,
I am propelled to hate.

It's a void, it's a silent hurt, that's killing me.
Are you proud of me? Am I who you thought I'd be?
I can see it in your eyes, I'm just another stray for the salvation army,
I am a disappointment, who knew...

It's only a matter of time until I spiral-spiral out of control
When will the cuts cut deep enough, bleed enough?
When will the starving show how bone deep words cut?
I'm slowly healing, I'm slowly dying

I want to show you how real this is for me.
I'm screaming from within-please save me,
I don't want to be a disappointment..

[Ana Save Me]
You are nothing without me, I will make you beautiful, I will be your best friend.
If you don't eat today, the hunger pains will be well worth your suffering-for thin is what beauty is all about.
When you choose to eat, you are only thinking of yourself, you will surely loose the only best friend in the world who knows what is truly good for you.
I know you'll be back and when you do come back, expect to suffer-I will force you to bleed and for that you only have yourself to blame.
None-the-less when you do come back, the hunger pains, dizziness, and blackouts will return [remember thin is what beauty is all about] welcome them and do not be afraid.
I am what makes you, beautifies you, will always be there for you.
Food will NEVER do what I can do-so the next time you want to eat remember how ugly and insecure you are.