It's been awhile or at least a while for me. I didn't finish the last post because I was tired and I've had a lot on my mind. I can't seem to get it right or a least seem to keep myself on a structured weight loss system. I literately fail. The only thing I can think of to do is to just stop-just stop eating. To stop going to the dinning hall for lunch, to stop going to the snack bar for food. I did this last year and I apparently was getting noticeably thinner. It's really sick that I want to feel as sick on the outside as I do on the inside. If I were to bring up that I have this disordered eating no one would believe me. It's all honestly so fucked up. To be more specific I am still taking vitamins but they don't have the same effect and it makes me mad.
Here's a short list of what I'm stressed out about:
I hate that I've been eating
I don't know if school's going to get payed for
I feel like I'm being haunted by my brothers passing
I hate my job
I still have to finish a class from spring semester
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